sheesh! one post for the month of february.
thats kinda sad - just goes to show how busy things are, I guess.

let me start by apologizing to any readers hoping for another drunken blog post over the weekend.
i didn't realize how much my away messages are enjoyed by people - or the drunk blogging.
i'll work on that :-D

so its spring break. i'm sitting in the Cats of the theater working an outside theater event for a group that's emasculted chris into working curtain instead of lights, and demoted my sound tech job to intermission/5 minute pause music, and dimming house lights for the same.
its so not worth the money - but at this point I'm stuck at La Salle, and I might as well cash in.


Friday night (the night that should've ended in an amusing drunken blog post...execpt there was too much Tequila) was awesome - it was Elisa's 23rd, and we sat at Independence Brew Pub for hours just laughing and talking about things.
Tequila drunk is a very different sort of drunk - I forget these things because I drink vodka so much.
It hits you in a completely different place in your head...
In particular, it made me want to dance, and sing. Its an anti-inhibitor really.


Things around me seem to be shitstorming again. I'm really sad to see a lot of friendships disintegrate, but... I guess thats life.


Its strange, talking to people about where they're going, who they'll still be in touch with...
Hearing a lot of localized plans...

And then going on awkwardly to say that I might be in Seattle for a year, or Cape Cod, or moving around the country with Americorps NCCC.

Its interesting to read the reactions I get. To see if people give a crap.
I've dealt with the Out of Sight Out of Mind attitude while I was away.

But really - I want so much to be certain of where I'm headed - for that comfort... But at the same time, committing to something that might determine where my life will be headed for the next number of years is kind of terrifying for me.


Can't I like, sail around the world, or backpack my way across Eurasia? Can't I pretend to be an explorer or something?
Instead of settling into something that's going to limit me with so many rules?


Hooroo real life, goodbye adventuring...for now, dammit. For now.